Hello everyone! Is it me or is this the slowest year ever?

I have taken the last couple months to really work on myself and experience all the emotions.

It feels like ages since we lost our baby boy, even though it was just in July. I can honestly say that I am in a much better headspace than I was then. I’m not saying I will ever totally be healed but what I have learned is that grief doesn’t really go away. You have to acknowledge it instead of letting it hold you back from your dreams.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of our sweet boy. After all, he is the reason we have some answers regarding the future, and for that I am thankful.

I had my ERA (Endometrial Receptivity Analysis) Test on Monday September 28th. It was a quick procedure with just a little discomfort (nothing I can’t handle anymore lol). It took about 2 weeks to get results and it turns out that I am Pre-Receptive. This means that we transferred our baby boy a little late.

The test results told me that I need specifically 133 hours of progesterone before we can transfer. When we transferred last time I was at approximately 140 hours of progesterone. This could be part of the reason why we never got to see his heartbeat. We just transferred too late.

I’m extremely happy to have these insights for the future. At least now we know EXACTLY when to transfer our next embryo.

After I started my period after the ERA, we started stimulation meds again for another egg retrieval. I started injections on Friday Oct 16th.

So far everything has been much better than the last retrieval. I went in for my last ultrasound today and all my follicles are much bigger than they were for my retrieval in March.

I have been cleared to do my trigger shot tonight and we are scheduled for egg retrieval on Wednesday, 10/28.

Any and all prayers would be so greatly appreciated.

I feel more calm this time around because I feel like this is the exact path that we need to be on. I keep telling myself that this is God’s plan and everything happens for a reason. So, i’m just going to put on my seatbelt and hang on for the ride.

Xoxo,

Jess